to a completely new social setting. im not exactly used to it and it’s this fear of change that’s tearing everything into pieces.

i’ll just give and give, and give even more until there’s nothing left, then maybe i’ll be allowed to be happy. if everyone values my actions so much, then why am i left by the wayside?

i don’t necessarily hit people up, but they don’t do the same. i’m unsure as to where to begin.

i am so wholly uninteresting. 

it seems so foreign to take solace in the solitude that i try to create for myself in daily life.